Depression Blog

December 11, 2007

I’m depressed

When I feel like this, I don’t talk about it much. In fact, it’s hard to have a conversation with anybody about anything. Sometimes I’ll get caught in a conversation - standing in line at the grocery store, and the lady behind me rolls her eyes and says, “I always pick the wrong line” I want to respond appropriately (however that is), but I don’t say anything. I try to smile so the woman doesn’t think I’m being a prude. I think, I want to slit my wrists; why are you talking about this small delay?

I bump into a friend at the shopping center, and I tell her, “I’m depressed” and she asks, “Why?” I can see in her eyes that she thinks I’m having a “bad hair day.” Maybe my stockings ran. Maybe I chipped a nail, or couldn’t find my favorite shampoo. Maybe my son is being unruly. I shake my head and listen to her talk about the sweater she just found at some great price and I think, “I just want to hang myself in the garage or take a bottle of pills.” That’s what I don’t say to people.

Saran Wrap commercials make me cry. My husband asks me, “What is the matter with you?” The laundry sits in a pile and I can’t get to it. The phone rings and I can’t answer it. My son’s teacher wants to talk to me about my son (who is brilliant, but can’t get around to doing his homework), and I want to run away.

I am intelligent. I know my son’s school work is the most important thing on the planet not just to my son’s teacher, my son and my husband, but also to me. Theoretically, I should return her call immediately and wade into whatever the issue is, but I can’t. I want to, but I’m afraid because in my state of depression, the English language doesn’t make sense. I worry that my son’s teacher won’t get the intelligent response she wants. I fear I will not manage to convey the “appropriate” level of understanding and caring. I know I will cry and embarrass myself and the teacher. I’ll look like a fool.

If I try to let somebody know how I am feeling, I just know they will tell me that I am too self-involved, being silly or that I need to think about my family and accomplish something and that will make me feel better. I agree, but then again…

I’m depressed.

-Marti

**http://www.everydayhealth.com/blog/making-sense-of-depression/im-depressed/

Oprah's 5 Eco-Friendly Tips

Eco-Friendly Tip #1 on Oprah: Eco-friendly Canvas Bags

When you’re deciding between paper and plastic at the grocery store, choose neither. Plastic takes 1,000 years to decompose and paper bags use 14 million trees a year. Instead, an easy eco-friendly tip is to use cloth grocery bags. Any cloth bag will do, but Oprah said that her website is selling organic cotton canvas bags made without pesticides.

Another easy eco-friendly tip on Oprah is to use an organic mesh bag for organic produce. One eco-friendly expert urged consumers to look at the amount of packaging in the grocery store. Since petroleum-based packaging isn’t good for the environment, buy items that use minimal packaging.

This easy eco-friendly tip may cost you a little more money: organic produce. It’s a green tip because it takes less energy to harvest and doesn’t use pesticides, so it’s healthier for the planet. But, organic produce isn’t necessarily a green money saving tip – though it could make you physically healthier.

Eco-Friendly Tip #2 on Oprah: Eco-Friendly Eating

Elizabeth Rogers wrote The Green Book, which contains dozens of easy eco-friendly tips that Oprah loved. In writing The Green Book she wanted to answer the question, “What are the easiest things we can do that make the biggest difference?”

One of Rogers' green tips is using one less napkin a day because paper napkins make a huge difference. Give up one paper napkin a day, and you’ll save a billion pounds of paper waste in landfills a year. Using cloth napkins is one easy eco-friendly tip on Oprah that makes a huge difference.

Eco-Friendly Tip #3 on Oprah: Natural Cleaning Products

“Clean doesn’t have a smell,” says one environmentally friendly family. When your bathroom is clean, it shouldn’t smell like pine or lemon. Switch from toxic to non-toxic, natural cleaning products. Seventh Generation sells non-toxic products, which improve your family’s healthy by being less likely to cause asthma attacks.

Eco-Friendly Tip #4 on Oprah: Change Your Lightbubs

Most of the energy comes from coal-fired plants. A compact fluorescent light bulb is more energy-efficient and will save your money in the long run. CFL lightbulbs are energy smart; they’re more expensive, but they’ll last longer.

Eco-Friendly Tip #5 on Oprah: Daily Green Tips for Every Family

These easy eco-friendly tips are things you can do every day. The green tips come from the Squire family (a green family featured on the eco-friendly Oprah show).

• Use the same cups over and over.
• Don’t run the dishwasher unless it’s absolutely full.
• Don’t throw clothing or shoes away, especially leather shoes.
• Buy clothes at secondhand, consignment, or resale shops.
• Put power strips on your tv to turn everything off when you go to bed or leave for the day. Vampire or standby power drains energy.

Another eco-friendly tip on Oprah is to go to a landfill and see where your garbage goes. It doesn’t just disappear! When you see a landfill in person, you’ll think twice about what you throw in the garbage and what you recycle. Recycle as much as you can. Make sure you check what types of plastic are recyclable in your city, through the Public Works or Sanitation Department.

**http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/5_ecofriendly_tips_on_oprah

Eco-Friendly Laptops

LG Electronics recently unveiled a concept for a future laptop called 'ebook'. Instead of the current LCD (liquid crystal display) panels, it uses OLED (organic light-emitting diode) panels which are more efficient in terms of energy consumption and manufacturing processes.

The laptop will be powered through clean fuels such as methyl alcohol or natural gas, and it features a special cylindrical hinge to storage such fuels. All the combined characteristics make this laptop much more environment-friendly than standard products.

The average person will keep a laptop for only three years before it is tossed in the closet or tossed in the garbage, which presses the issue for an even more recyclable laptop. Some issues that still need addressed and some possible solutions:

1. Problem: Petroleum-filled plastic. Solution: Produce laptops from corn using bioplastic-polymers. The main issue at the point is creating a heat resistant polymer that can withstand the heat from a laptop.

2. Problem: Power Supply. Solution: Use the power of the sun the recharge your laptop. Solar powered chargers are in the works.

3. Problem: Lead products in the waste. Solution: As mentioned above, the European Union has enacted legal restrictions on lead. President Bush has also followed suit with standards for American lead use.

4. Problem: Spinning hard drives. Solution: Future laptops could reduce their energy use up to 10 percent by replacing hard drives with flash memory, which has no watt-hungry moving parts. Dell debuted a laptop with a 32-gigabyte solid-state drive this year.

Some recent awards winners for laptops that are friendly to the environment include: XO Laptop, Toshiba Portege R500, HP 2710p, Lenovo Thinkpad X300, and the Dell D630.

Mike T Martin


**http://safeandgreenliving.blogspot.com/2009/04/eco-friendly-laptops.html

Survival of the Fittest: Surviving a Winter Storm While Camping

Posted by Lee S. Apr 28, 2009

The experienced wilderness survivor knows the joys of winter camping, like silence and solitude. You already know how to dress; next, is to prepare for a winter storm. A winter storm can come out of nowhere in the mountains. So, let's set up your base camp so it's storm-ready.

Make your camp in a sheltered spot, like the down-wind side of a group of trees. Check them for dead branches and pull down any you find. Trample the base for your tent wearing your snowshoes or skis; make it as level as possible.

Start with an insulating footprint for your tent. The best tents are shaped to shed snow, like a dome tent., and also provide plenty of space. A tent fly can keep your tent walls freezing. Erect the tent on the footprint with the entrance away from the prevailing wind. Build a packed snow wall three to four feet high and a foot away from your tent walls along the back and around the sides to the entrance as a windbreak and for extra insulation.

Place a tarp or space blanket, like the one inside your first aid kit, on the tent floor for more insulation. Keep a brush just outside your tent (or in the vestibule) to knock off any snow on your clothes and boots, and keep it outside your tent. Use warm sleeping pads under a good winter sleeping bag like this one from Sierra Designs that's good to 30 degrees. Sleep in your baselayer top and bottom, and bring your outer clothes inside your sleeping bag to warm up before you put them on. Wear a hat or balaclava for warmth while you sleep as well as when you're outside, and make sure you're breathing outside your sleeping bag to avoid humidity building up.

Use your stove to cook and to melt snow; keep water bottles upside down. Cook outside your tent; fuel fumes can be deadly. Eat plenty of carbohydrates, and make warm drinks throughout the day to help keep your core warm and to avoid dehydration.

Now that you've set up a storm-sturdy camp, your next big danger is hypothermia.


**http://blogs.zappos.com/blogs/outdoor/2009/04/28/survival-of-the-fittest-surviving-a-winter-storm-while-camping

Where The Hell Are The Strong Women?

By Dodai, 4:00 PM on Thu Mar 27 2008,

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In The Independent today, Johann Hari writes, "Where have all the strong women gone?" Hari gets all nostalgic for Bette Davis: "She was not only a woman; she was an electrical storm with skin. She never pretended to be dumb, or a little girl. She didn't do soft, or simpering. She had a voice like sour cream, and eyes like a raven." But, Hari argues, women on film — and on TV — have weakened. "If the symbol of 1930s Hollywood was Bette Davis in Jezebel, defiantly wearing red to her virgin-white ball, today it is Cameron Diaz in There's Something About Mary, rubbing semen into her hair because she is too dumb to realize it's not hair gel."

But what about Buffy? You may ask (I definitely ask!) Hari answers:The few strong women in Hollywood movies and TV are safely located in an unreal world: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Xena: Warrior Princess. The closest to an unapologetic feminist is Lisa Simpson - and she is eight years old, and a cartoon. This isn't because Hollywood is especially sexist. Hollywood largely gives us what we want - and we don't want to idolize strong, powerful women today.

I tried taking a look at my DVD collection to see if there were any movies with strong women in it. Whale Rider was the only "modern" movie. And the lead is — in the words of Ms. Britney Spears — not a girl, not yet a woman. Maybe Flirting? Or Blue Crush. I don't own Death Proof but I plan to. Other than that, all of the other films with strong women (The Women, His Girl Friday, The Wizard Of Oz?) are from a bygone era. (The rest, stuff like Midnight Cowboy, Nowhere, Shampoo, Adaptation, Pirates Of The Caribbean, Velvet Goldmine, Harold & Kumar... male-oriented.

Hari notes that today, a majority of college graduates are female. We have a woman running for president. We live in a time where women are in business, in government, in outer space. Why aren't they in entertainment?

Johann Hari: Where Have All The Strong Women Gone? [Independent]

**http://jezebel.com/372963/where-the-hell-are-the-strong-women

Crisiboy.Com: Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho Scandal

May 20, 2009 by Chris
Filed under: Entertainment


The 3-year relationship or should I say love affair between Dr. Vicki Belo of the Belo Medical Group and Dr. Hayden Kho has now put into sensation and controversy due to some fellows who got involved on a scandalous video, which according to others, was the main reason of their recent break-up.

Based on stories of some showbiz respected resources, their controversial breakup happened last December 10 after Vicki Belo discovered by herself some scandalous videos on Hayden Kho’s laptop. The racy videos were filmed by Hayden himself and it involved different woman,most of whom were secretly filmed. And yes, it was confirmed that the sexy star Katrina Halili, who is a former BeloMed endorser and model was in one of the scandal videos. And as reportedly recently, Katrina had a confrontation with Vicki Belo and admitted a relationship with Hayden Kho that lasted for almost a year.

A few hours ago, featured in SNN (Showbiz News Ngayon) by Boy Abunda and Kris Aquino, the Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho Scandal video was leaked over the Youtube by some sources who got hold of the alleged controversial video. The scandal video that leaked in youtube was firmly confirmed that it involves Katrina Halili wearing her 2-piece bikini caressing and singing the song “Careless Whisper” together with Hayden Kho that can be seen wearing his underwear too in an intimate private place.

In latest news, Sen. Bong Revilla called up the PRC (Professional Regulation Commission) to revoke the license of Hayden Kho, who he described the controversial videos as an “insanity”, and Kho should be punished from the results.

Gabriella movement also gave their full support to Katrina Halili and promised to give their conselling to the young actress.

Now, after I saw the video, I felt so pity to Katrina and thought what could it bring to her family and friends. Judge for yourself if its true that this video link below is Katrina and Hayden.

Katrina Halili and Hayden Kho Scandal

**http://www.crisiboy.com/entertainment/katrina-halili-hayden-kho-scandal/

Katrina Halili-Hayden Kho Video Scandal?

Published by gary on Dec 25th, 2008 in Entertainment, Movies, Video Scandals, blogging everything, celebrities with 3 Comments

There are rumors spreading that there is a Katrina Halili-Hayden Kho Video Scandal on the net and this speculation sprouted when the Buzz about vicky belo and hayden kho split up was rooted.

The source revealed that vicky belo the famous skin doctor already has a copy of this video sex scandal. I personally don’t know about it and have no plans of watching it coz it’s not my cup of tea, but for the sake of blogging about it then it matters to me and i undertsnad that vicky belo is a very good doctor and very rich that hayden kho beg for her to forgive him not because of the money i guess but because he loved her.

We all know that sooner or later the katrina halili and hayden kho video sex scandal will be available only if there was a video scandal in the first place:-) and we all know that it can spread like wild fire just like the criselda volks video scandal. But let’s not speculate and give them the benefit of the doubt but if you’re really up to the video scandal of hayden kho and katrina halili just wait and see if there’s any.

**http://garycortez.com/katrina-halili-hayden-kho-video-scandal/

Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili video spreads like wildfire online

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May 19, 2009 22:58

If you're a Netizen, then maybe you have seen the much talked about sex video of Dr Hayden Kho Jr and actress Katrina Halili. OK, I have to admit, I have seen it not once, but twice (sounds familiar?).

The said video was the reason the relationship of Kho and Dra. Vicki Belo ended. But you know how love works--Kho and Belo are back in each other's arms again. A case of "love conquers all" thing?

Mojo:lations: Blogging, the beach & more chuva!

By DJ MOJO JOJO

May 18, 2009, 2:53pm

It seems like the past few weeks have been part of the most hectic summer I’ve experienced in a long time. With the inclement weather done and over with (at least for now), the summer events are racking up... one after the other. Again, I’m writing my column from the shores of Boracay, the season’s unofficial hub for summer shindigs and events. I’ll fill you in on what I’m on the island for this time in next week’s Mojo:lations – but for now, read on to see what’s been happening on Boracay shores the past few weeks as well as other fun-filled chuva to look out for. Enjoy!

Boracay Blogging

It was back to Boracay for a Bloggers Summit spearheaded by www.donavictorina.com, one of the country’s foremost blog forums for socio-civic and political issues. Powered by Philips, the summit focused on how to save Boracay and other beaches around the globe from the threat of over-development. Dozens environmentally concerned bloggers from all over the world joined the summit via teleconference and shared their ideas with the contingent of pinoy blog personalities present led by Attorney Trixie Angeles in a concerted effort to save the shores of one of the Philippines’ prime tourist destinations.

While on the topic of blogging, I’d like to congratulate blog diva extraordinaire Cecile Zamora-Van Straten, who is better known online as the brains behind www.chuvaness.com, for being proclaimed the Preview + Samsung’s Style Icon winner of 2009!

Balls on the Beach

After the Boracay Bloggers Summit, it was off to enjoy some fun in the sun with one of the newest sporting crazes to hit Philippine shores! Summer sports history was made in Boracay when the Nestlé Pops’ Dodge ‘n Pop 2009 Summer Dodgeball Games were held on the island over the recent Labor Day weekend. The star-studded competition, sanctioned by the Philippine Dodgeball Association, marked an innovative twist to the increasingly popular sport with the games officially being brought to the beach for the first time.

A large crowd gathered as hot celebrities, including the likes of Krista Ranillo, Cesca Litton, Tisha Silang, Grace Lee and Mark Nelson, took part in some exciting dodgeball action under the sun alongside tournament competitors vying for the top prize.

The champion team Boracay Dragons bested 13 others for the historic title, R10,000 in cash, and loads of other prizes from Nestlé and event sponsors Hawaiian Tropic, Rider After Sports Footwear, and media sponsors Magic 89.9, MTV, Sports Unlimited, Garage Magazine and Stella Magazine. Spectators also got involved in the excitement with fun mini games. Free snacks were handed out to all comers courtesy of Nestlé Pops. Jeffrey Rodriguez of the winning team was chosen Most Valuable Player and won a cool Philips GoGear mp3 player.

VJ/DJ Andrea Manzano, the face behind the Nestlé Pops television commercial was also at hand to join the competition and sample the delicious chocolate-coated bite-sized vanilla ice cream, Nestlé Pops. “The game is so fun!” said Andi. “I’m glad that dodgeball is taking it to the next level. Playing on the beach is even harder than on a regular court but twice the fun!”

Nestlé Ice Cream executive Gel Angeles expressed optimism that the first Boracay competition signaled the beginning of an annual summer sports event. “Nestlé Pops and beach dodgeball are a perfect fit. Both are unconventional, but fun at the same time. We hope to mark every summer with this competition,” said Angeles.

Benedict Camara, President of the Philippine Dodgeball Association, which sanctioned the celebrity event exclaimed, “This is how dodgeball is supposed to be – Informal, fun, honest, exciting, competitive. Where everyone from the celebrities to hosts to participants to spectators actively participate in the game!”

PCD Back in Town

“My Name is Nicole.” Who can forget this line? Nicole Scherzinger, the Pussycat Doll’s sexy half-Filipina lead singer, was recently seen all over Philippine television as Clear’s newest global endorser. Her confidence, power and charisma shine through in each performance showcasing world-class vocals and sexy dance moves.

Clear and MTV Philippines bring you “A Clear Doll Domination: The Pussycat Dolls Live in Manila” this coming June 11 at the SM Mall of Asia Concert grounds. Let them take the hotness meter a notch hotter as you witness the Dolls’ moves live once again. This is going to be 2009’s sexiest concert! Fans can visit www.clear.com.ph to see how they can get up to 50% off.

**http://www.mb.com.ph/node/201007

Some writing tips for your blog

Writing tips and articles for blog isn’t an easy job.I am not good at writing. I use some simple tricks to write in my blog.

Steps for writing (How i wrote lol) :

1. Ideas for topics : Ideas are all around. You can write about anything. when browsing web you are learning write about the info what you have learned (In your way).

2. Find and learn : Find topics people are looking for.Always find the latest and hottest topics around the net. Write about that!. And make a stumble or dig you will get lot of hits on your web.

3. Open your : At first make your refresh your mind and try to think about the facts you are going to write. If you want to know more about something try searching on internet.You will find lot info about the topics.

Then have fun with your creativity...

http://www.bytetips.com/some-writing-tips-for-your-blog/